Regret

I just registered for my last semester of my Undergraduate degree at CSUCI and I have to say, I feel pretty good about it. As of right now (still waiting to hear back on my graduation application), I am taking 4 classes; one online, two are only one day a week, and the fourth is two days a week. Meaning I will only have to be at school two days a week. It's a dream schedule and I am really praying that it works out.

Right now I am feeling pretty good, but a couple of weeks ago, I was starting to feel a bit of regret in regards to my degree. Switching majors and schools was a big mess for me and I made the difficult decision to not pursue a math degree with, what I feel, was not a whole lot of information or knowledge of what I was capable of. My friend keeps asking my why I am not a Math major and I keep telling him its because I didn't want to spend the rest of my life in school. I needed to see an end to this. I needed to move on with my life. But it wasn't until he told me "You should have been a Math Major" that I started to feel some regret about my decision. Don't get me wrong, I am happy to be done (almost). I am happy to be moving onto the next step. I am happy in the path I am taking. But there is that little voice in my head now saying "You should have been a Math Major." I know it's a normal voice. I am sure many people hear the same voice as they come to the end of their schooling. But there it is... The little voice inside my head...

Two Month Preview

Fri - April 22: Engagement Party (no not mine... duh!)

Sun - April 24: Easter Sunrise (not the same ol' BS)

Mon - April 25: Register for, what I hope, is my last semester of my undergrad

Mon - May 2: Music in History Term Paper Due

Sat - May 7: CSET Math (or at least a part of it since I can't afford to take the whole test...)

Mon - May 9: Political Sociology Term Paper Due & Sarah's Nursing School Graduation

Wed-Fri - May 11-13: EXPED

Wed - May 11: Capstone Presentation

Mon-Thur - May 16-19: Finals

Tues - May 17: Social Psychology Term Paper Due

Fri-Sun - May 20-21: Host

Wed-Fri - May 25-27: EXPED

Sat - May 28: Villanova Graduation

Sat-Wed - May 28- June 1: Host

Wed-Fri - June 1-3: EXPED

Fri-Sun - June 3-5: Host

Wed - June 8: Summer Staff Begins...

Maybe feeling a little overwhelmed...

No, No... It's Fine

No, no... It's fine... A girl brought her dog to class yesterday. A little yappy thing with lots of hair. Carried it in a Trader Joe's bag. Made a little seat/bed for it in the chair next to her. The professor didn't care. He thought it was cute... It did try to attack him towards the end of class though which was pretty funny...

Where is the funniest place you have ever seen someone bring their little dog? (not an assistance dog... a little one that fits in a bag...)

Superiority...

Yesterday in class a girl got up and started talking about a Human Trafficking event that is happening at my school in a week or so. She stood up there talking about for a little while and all I could think about was how much information she was getting wrong and how poor of a job she was doing and inviting people to this event. I felt superior to her for knowing more about it and for having known about it for several years. I felt this way for most of her presentation (which ended with an invitation to an Invisible Children event on campus which was sparked a whole nother set of feelings of "yeah, old news... Trendy issue...") and then had to take a step back and ask myself "What in the world are you thinking? Yeah, Human Trafficking is something you were really passionate and concerned about years ago, but that drive has faded. What are you doing to help the cause? Maybe this isn't new news but it's not old news. This is current news. This is something that was not only a problem 5 years ago but it was a problem 50 years ago and it's a problem now. Today. And she is doing something about it. Why aren't you?"

Sometimes I catch myself feeling superior to others. The only thing I can think to do is take a step back and knock myself down a few pegs before someone else does... It doesn't matter how many people show up for the event. The truth is she is bettering God's Kingdom here and now. And it makes me think... What am I doing?