Show Me Your Glory

I see the clouds, I step in

I want to see Your glory as Moses did

Flashes of light, Rolls of thunder

I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, Show me Your glory

Show me Your glory, Show me Your glory

I'm awed by Your beauty, lost in Your eyes

I want to walk in Your presence like Jesus did

Your glory surrounds me and I'm overwhelmed

I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, Show me Your glory

Show me Your glory, Show me Your glory

I want to look on the face of the One that I love

Long to stay; in Your presence is where I belong

I'm not afraid, I'm not afraid

Show me Your glory, Show me Your glory

Show me Your glory, Show me Your glory

What does it look like to daily pursue God? To desire to be close to Him? What if we were faced with the awe-inspiring beauty of His glory daily? What would it be like to actually be lost in His eyes? I think I would be afraid. But I want to see Your glory God. Show me Your glory! "I want to look on the face of the One that I love. Long to stay; in Your presence is where I belong."

Fears vs. Dreams

"We don’t normally face our fears willingly. Usually, God has to woo us into the desert. We are either chasing love or some other desire, and we find ourselves in the midst of a situation in which we have very little control. And when we lose control, we go into a mild form of trauma. But the good news is the greatest stories are lived in the desert. The great lives are lived in the places we most fear. If we fear being rejected, the great story has us standing at the door with flowers in our hands, if we fear losing love, the great stories have us letting that person go rather than clinging to them. If we fear taking a chance on a dream, the great stories have us quitting our jobs." - Donald Miller

Yesterday I started my last semester of my undergraduate education. It's going to be a pretty easy semester as far as school work goes, but as I start to transition into the next stage of my life and figure out where God wants to take me, I definitely have been finding myself facing some big fears but dreaming some big dreams. Amber posted a link to Donald Miller's Blog yesterday that got me really excited about the future. I am excited to face my fears in pursuit of my dreams with the strength and courage that only God can provide. I needed to read this blog today and see this video. Thanks for sharing Amber!

Flawz

So overdone, but never said enough...

Psalm 139
¹ You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.
² You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
³ You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
⁴ Before a word is on my tongue
you, LORD, know it completely.
⁵ You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
¹¹ If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
¹² even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

¹³ For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
¹⁴ I praise you because I am FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY made;
your works are WONDERFUL,
I know that full well.
¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
¹⁶ Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
¹⁷ How precious to me are your thoughts,^[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
¹⁸ Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.

¹⁹ If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
²⁰ They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
²¹ Do I not hate those who hate you, LORD,
and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
²² I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
²³ Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
²⁴ See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

God Provides

God is so good and He never ceases to amaze me how He always provides. I was coming out of this summer and going into this last semester of school, broke and broken, stressed about money and trying desperately to find a job in order to pay for this semester of school on top of my other bills. Then, out of no where, when I was close to the end of the rope, God provided. I was just offered well over the amount of my tuition in Grants which will help me cover the remaining cost of books, parking, and maybe even a laptop sometime in the future... Thank You God for always providing for me! Lord I am AMAZED by You! You are so Good!!!

I was listening to a sermon last weekend about discontentment in our relationship with Christ. The pastor mostly talked about how discontentment is actually a good thing in our faith. We should never be at a place in our relationship where we think we have enough. We should always be desiring more and more of Christ. We should desire to be closer and closer and to know more and more about Him.

I was really convicted and somewhat encouraged by that sermon. I have never really been where I want to be in my walk with Christ and I think that's ok. I think it's really easy as Christians to get complacent in our walks and I struggle with that sometimes. We should be desiring more.

"When I search for You everyday, I find how whole you make me. When I lay down all of my will, I am found within Your love."

This is my desire. To search for Christ everyday. And to find myself in His love.

Remember when a High School boy last week said, "Michaela, you look beautiful tonight"? Why should something like that make me want to cry? Probably because it was the nicest, most genuine thing I have ever heard from a guy. Even though he is in High School and it is slightly weird and inappropriate, it kinda brought tears to me eyes.

Saying Goodbye, Going away.
Seems like Goodbye's such a hard thing to say.
Touching a hand, wondering why,
It's time for saying Goodbye.

Saying Goodbye, why is it sad?
Makes us remember the good times we've had.
Much more to say, foolish to try,
It's time for saying Goodbye.

Don't want to leave, but we both know
Sometimes it's better to go
Somehow I'll know, we'll meet again
Not sure quite where, and I don't know just when.
You're in my heart, so until then,
Wanna smile, wanna cry,
Saying Goodbye.

Today's goodbye was hard. I'm not really sure why. Maybe it's because it was my last roommate. Maybe it's just too many goodbye's over and over again. Maybe my heart is just hurting and is finally letting loose. But today I cried. A lot. Why do Goodbyes hurt so much? Even ones that aren't real goodbyes but more see you later's?

Notty...

Welp... Summer program is now over. So many thoughts and feelings have been rushing through me these last few days. I plan on writing a full summary of the summer in a few days when I finish processing the whole summer, but for now I would just like to say that I have been stretched and bent in so many different ways this summer and it has been a blessing to watch God work in my life and the lives of others around me. It really was/is a blessing to have worked with such amazing people and I am so sad to see them go (there is nothing like going through the 5 stages of grief over and over again over the course of a week as you watch people leave). But I am so excited to see and hear how God will work in their lives this year!

Today I go back to hosting with three groups, including Camp Spin Off with DJ Tina T! Can't wait!