On a Dime

Isn't it amazing how life can change on a Dime? Yesterday I was sitting writing about how lame my classes are. Little did I know at the time, my life was about to change forever.

Yesterday my Mom went in for a colonoscopy (she had been having some troubles with her bowels that I am not going to go into). The doctors found a fairly large tumor in her colon. She decided it would be best to have it removed sooner then later so she scheduled her surgery for today at noon. Unfortunately I did not find any of this out until 11 o'clock last night.

The surgery went really well. They ended up taking out about 12 inches of her colon as well as her appendix (Dr. Davis said it just gets in the way). The doctors said that they didn't see anything else in there to be concerned about. Now we just wait for the biopsy to find out if the tumor was cancerous. The doctors say that even if it is not cancerous, they might still do some chemo to make sure nothing becomes carcinogenic.

To say the least it has been a very long day, but as I was sitting watching my mom sleep (tubes coming out to wazzoo) I couldn't help but feel comforted by a book I was reading. Like I said yesterday, I started reading Starving Jesus and it has really led me to a lot of things that have really comforted me (I got a lot of reading done last night; I couldn't sleep and I really didn't have anyone to talk to at 12am last night). But it was today in the hospital room with my mom that I felt the most comforted. The chapter I was reading talked about trusting God and following your call... Then I came across a passage that I have read a thousand times, but this time it was really worthwhile:

Matthew 6:25-34

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I really don't have anything else to say but God will still be God. No matter how much worrying I do, God will still be God. I am still super shocked that this all is happening, but God is God and he is good. And as I cried myself to sleep last night, I could only sing "Blessed be Your name, on the road marked with suffering. Though there's pain in the offering, Blessed be Your name! Every Blessing you poor out I'll turn back to praise. When the darkness closes in Lord, still I will say, Blessed be the name of the Lord! Blessed be Your name! Blessed be the name of the Lord! Blessed be Your glorious name! Blessed be Your name when I am found in the dessert place. Though I walk through the wilderness, Blessed be Your name! "